Touching the Heart of Ace

Chapter 17

I sobbed hard onto my knees.

Why was I like this? Why was he like this? What was I thinking?

I wished everything was a dream. And when I woke up, I was away from him and he was with his

family.

??I am with my family. I am home. You are my home.?? I sobbed harder. He was so cruel, lying right on

my face, so he could... and I let him.

The pain on my body was nothing compared to the pain in my heart. I hated this.

Why couldn??t I love Tristian? He was sweet, kind and considerate, but my stupid heart wanted the

one who was playing me like a puppet.

??Look at this baby. You want me so much.?? Sometime in the midst of our coupling he had stopped

thrusting but I was seeking the pleasure on my own and he rubbed that on my face, asking me to All text © NôvelD(r)a'ma.Org.

scream his name if wanted more. I did!

I was so pathetic.

He even used my body when I passed out, because when I woke up he was still moving inside me.

He was praying every time he was thrusting. Whispering my name over and over again, as if he could

not believe it was indeed me who was writhing under him.

The man was passed out beside me.

Tired, sated and victorious.

I was broken down to pieces. He would not care about that. He would not care that I had to endure this

alone. He wanted me and he got me. No, I handed myself to him, didn??t I?

I swallowed my next sob when I felt movement beside me. I rubbed my tears away. I was not going to

show how pathetic I truly was. I was not going give him that satisfaction of my humiliation.

Wetness dragged from the curve of mounds to my vertebrae. His tongue slowly tracing its path to the

back of my neck, leaving tiny brushes of his lips as kisses. His warm breath fanned on my ears.

??You were so incredible, gorgeous.?? He rubbed his lips on my cheek slowly making its way to my

lips. I turned my face away but he coiled his hand around my neck and his palm shifted my face to him

and he took it.

He took the kiss like he owned my lips.

??I hope you are not so sore. Because, thinking about what we did before makes me want to do it

again. So, fucking incredible. So tight, so warm. I could...??

His words were interrupted by his phone. He ignored it in favour of biting my flesh again but the person

on the phone was persistent. ??I want to be inside you for ever and ever. I love it when you milk me. So

tempting and alluring. Your tiny buds begging me to give the pain they deserve. It should be illegal to

be this sensual. You make me crazy. Crazy with need. One more ti...??

What if it was his...?

I swallowed the pain pushing in my throat.

Another ring.

He sighed and searched among the mess we made, picking his jacket from the desk and answering

the call.

??I am busy... where do you think? Yup... I have to go... Make it five.?? He winked at me. ??Do I ever

joke?... How?... I will be there... Better yet, pick me up from here in ten. Yes, Nick. That is not an

option. He means the life to me.?? He hung up the call.

??I am so sorry, Angel. I have to go. I hate leaving you, I haven??t even seen you properly yet.??

His eyes clouded with lust at my vulnerability. The blanket I was draped on my knees made a tent in

front of my body and he did not like it. I was not comfortable in nudity as he was. He always found it

amusing.

??You have nothing to hide from me. You are so gorgeous you make my blood boil.?? He licked his lips

and yanked away the blanket, his eyes greedily taking in my already abused body.

I blinked away the tears. How could he treat me like this? Was I just a thing for everyone?

His hands rubbed and squeezed my flesh making it red.

Then he hugged me; I was the most precious person in his life, which was funny.

Lie.

Fucking lie.

??I don??t want to go. I just got you back. I want to spend every second with you.??

He was kissing me, with lips, tongue and teeth.

??When your boyfriend comes, don??t bother lying. He would know you are thoroughly fucked to the

inch of your life.??

His smile turning sinister. He pushed me on my chest and the hold I had on my knees broke and I had

to support my body on my elbows.

I was vulnerable with my knees bent and parted. He was enjoying my misery.

??Mine.?? He covered my soft member with mouth and played it with his tongue.

??Mine.?? Weighing my twin spheres, gently holding them with his teeth, marking his claim.

??Mine.?? The he took a huge swipe across my sore opening making me wince.

??Mine. You are mine. Then again you know it, don??t you? Keeping yourself safe and sacred for me

to ravish. That idiot can rot in hell; you are only for me. Your precious hole wants only me.??

Shame filled every pore of my body. How did he know I was not touched by anyone else? Did he think I

was fucking loser? I did not stop the stray tear that left my eye.

His phone rang again making him grunt in annoyance. He got dressed covering every hickey I had left

on him.

I was pathetic. I refused to acknowledge that I was indeed a slut. I... deserved everything I was going

through. No wonder he treated me like a whore; I was one.

I was confused when he took the chair and placed it under the lamp above the window. He stood on it

and pulled out a... camera?

Was he recording... was he fucking recording us?

He was recording my being...

Every cell of my body froze under realization. He recorded us. What was he going to do with it? Was he

going to destroy me? I shivered.

Horror gripping my heart.

??If someone needs to hear you screaming my name to believe.?? He had the audacity to be smug.

When another call came, he merely received the message, frowning and hung up the call.

Was it his...

He shook his head as if I was annoying him to bits.

??The mess you put yourself into.??

Rage!

I was seeing red!

The mess I put myself into? I did this to myself? How dare he? I put myself into this mess?

??YOU, BASTARD. FUCK YOU.??

I reached for the mini recorder in his hands but I was nowhere close to him in strength. He twisted me

around and around making my head spin, tucked my head under his chin, squeezed my cheeks and

forcefully thrusted his tongue inside and did the literal ??fuck you?? in my mouth.

The message was clear. I was the one who was fucked. I was fucked by him.

He was spitting on my ears. ??Be my adorable kitten, Angel. I will be back in a few and will fuck you.

Who knows, maybe even punish you.??

He shoved me to the bed, gave me another bruising kiss and he left.

Just like that!

I screamed.

I screamed in horror, pain and absolute humiliation.

I punched my pillow out of the frustration I could not control.

I hated him. I fucking hated him

??I HATE YOU.??

I hated him so much.

I hated him for making me love him so much.

I hated that I still loved him so much.

I hated that I was more worried about the bags under his eyes than the fucking sex tape in his hands

that could destroy me.

??I HATE YOU ROBBIE.??

??I hate you so so so much.??

I cried till my eyes were stinging. I screamed till my throat was hurting.

I hated my big baby so much.

Was he thinking about me?

Was he with his wife?

Was he looking for me?

It had been a week since but I still felt him in the places he claimed as his.

??I can??t believe Dr. Pudgy was a fucking sicko, man!?? Rupert announced after arranging the living

room.

My third home; had to find some ridiculous solution to throw my bug baby off the hook.

Ned nodded gulping the water down in one go and spilling half of it on his shirt.

??We are going to crash in here. I cannot think of moving my body.?? Ned plopped down the floor, like

a wet noodle.

I agreed. I was thankful even for the company.

??I still cannot believe Dr. Jones was fucking that freshman. Good riddance! Do you have anything to

do with that, Mr. I-don??t-need-skills-to-own-a-Bugatti???

??Guys, stop!?? I groaned into my palm.

They laughed.

??Come on, it is funny. Now we don??t feel bad to mooch you off your lunch... and dinner... and

breakfast. But seriously? Did you do it???

??No.??

I did not. I did not have to. Robbie came to know of what happened.

The freshman issue was the only incident the college knew of, but Dr. Jones lost everything.

His wife left him along with his homophobic sons, he lost his house because there was some

disperency in his mortgage, the college terminated him and his teaching licence was suspended until

further notice, all in one week.

His losing job was my mom??s doing, rest was all Robbie. I thought Robbie was feeling guilty because

he was the one who landed me in the trouble in first place. He let go of Dr. Jones easily.

But the students still thought it was my doing but the kid, Martin was thankful; the sicko was real sick.

Ding.

Done.

It was a text from Jason.

I was hiding again. What else could I do? I blinked away the burn on my eyes.

??Are you crying? Man, I was joking.??

??Gods, no! Dust on my eyes.??

??Yeah man, Ned you should clean your bedroom more often.??

Yeah, I moved into Ned??s apartment. There was no way he would find me here. If he tried to contact

Ned, he would tell me.

??David, we have something to tell you. Please don??t be angry at us.??

I looked from Ned to Rupert to Ned back to Rupert.

??What???

Did Robbie already contact them and this was a set up?

??We are boyfriends.??

??Oh. Okay, for a sec... Wait. WHAT!!! WHEN? HOW???

??Ummm, quite some time now, you have been kind of out of it lately, so we thought we kind of wait

but now, you are moving in here and I am moving in with Ru, we kind of want to tell you now, are you

kind of angry? Don??t be angry at Ru, he told me we should but I kind of...??

??NO!!!??

??What? You don??t accept us???

??NO!!!??

??WHAT? I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS.??

??NO!!!??

??I think you guys should breathe.?? Rupert slowly rubbed his hands on Ned??s back. ??David please

continue.??

??But, Ru... he...?? Rupert quickly kissed his lips and shut him up. I had someone like that in my life

but we were not boyfriends.

??No, I am not angry at you for not telling me right away. I am gay too Ned, of course, I would approve.

Even if I was not, it should not matter. We are friends. Sexuality does not limit friendships.??

??Pay up.??

??Dammit. David, you could have been angry for few days, you know.??

Ned took his wallet and payed Rupert twenty dollars.

I sighed. Why all the men friends in my life idiots?

??What was it this time???

??I told him you are gay and would not mind us in a relationship. Of course he had to bet on his ass,

but I got that before, so twenty dollars.??

??Shuddup, Ru.??

I chuckled, it was funny.

??I am not gay. It is just Ru.??

??Well, I am glad.?? Rupert nuzzled into his chest.

Why my chest felt so empty? I rubbed the pain on my heart.

??So, guys, I have to go now. Helen will have my ass if I am late. Wash the sheets if you leave.?? I

wiggled my forefinger at them but they were far too gone to notice my leaving.

With my solo performance coming up, I found out why Helen was called Hell.

At least she was not asking me to add extra time. The dance practise was of course so brutal, but I was

getting the hang of it. It was a good exercise, my jaw lines and cheek bones were bit more defined.

I stopped having chocolate cake to cut short on the sugar intake but the bakery was kind enough to

make me one without too much white sugar. It still tasted so delicious. I bought one on every fifth day.

They made the best chamomile tea too, better than my own.

The hour I frequented was mostly their slow hours after practise but it was emptier than usual. The

cashier recognized me right away.

??Welcome back, David. How was the strawberry one, you liked???

??I am sure it was delicious George, but the strawberry cake was not for me. It was for my friends.

They both licked the cake stand, if you wanted the feedback.??

He laughed, his pot belly jiggling. I smiled, he always radiated happiness. Then he was sober in a blink.

??Ummm, I am not supposed to say this, but there is a man waiting for you. Boss lady told me I am to

leave after seeing you. But... what if he is a bad guy???

??Who???

??Me.??

I turned around.

There he was!

Gorgeous, tired and sad.

??I will see you later, George.?? I walked past Robbie and he pulled me back. ??Please don??t make

a scene.?? I whispered, none too kindly.

??You are right. You, leave.?? He spat to George who was staring at Robbie a bit afraid.

??I am not leaving. Take your hands off him.??

Wow. That was a first.

??I have reserved the whole establishment, this evening. You will be fired before tomorrow morning if

you do not leave.??

??You can have ??the establishment??. He does not come with that. Come on, David. I will walk you

out.??

??How about you get fired now???

??Get me fired. I have a son too. David is not staying here if he does not want to. My wife will

understand if I am jobless because I refused to leave a young man in trouble.?? George tried to touch

my hand and Robbie pushed me behind his back.

??Touch him and I will...??

??Robbie, stop it. What if it is not you? What if someone else came in and he handed over me just like

that? Apologize, right now.??

Robbie stared at me. He knew what I meant. ??Fine! I will apologize if you talk to me.??

I glared at him, that was not fair. George was worried and he needed this job. ??I will talk to you.?? The

spots he put me in, all the freaking time.

??I am sorry, Sir. I was trying to get him talking and he was not listening to me. I would very much like

to have a private conversation with him. I was being rude to you and I apologize.??

George was dumbfounded at how Robbie went from 180 to 0 in a second.

Robbie was not a bad guy. He was a big baby who threw tantrums when something did not go his way.

He wanted me alone and George was just in the way.

??I will wait outside.??

??No, George you should go home. I am fine. Come on Robbie, there is a park nearby. We will go

there to talk.??

??We can talk here.??

??No.?? I did not trust myself to be alone with him and George would not leave if I was here with

Robbie.

I watched Robbie giving George his business card. ??Please give me a call later if you need a better

job or a favour. Thank you for sticking up with my Angel.??

I shook my head.

??Jason says you are running away from me because I do not give you a choice.?? He wiped my lips

after I had finished the ice cream as we sat under a tree.

I shrugged. What was there to say?

??So, Angel, I am going to give you a choice. You either come willingly or I will take you with me. Your

choice.??

What the heck!

Robbie was... he was... uggh.

How was that giving me a choice!!!

Did he even know what choices mean? ??You do realize that is not how you give people choices,

right? You ask if I want to come with you. Now that is giving me a choice.??

??Fine!?? He ground his teeth. ??Do you want to come with me???

??No.?? I looked away from his eyes. I could not bear the emotions in them.

??EXACTLY WHY, I DON??T GIVE YOU A CHOICE.??

??Lower your voice. There are kids around.??

??I don??t give a...??

I covered his lips with my forefinger. ??Well, I do. I am not coming with you Robbie. Go home. You

have a baby to wait for.??

Don??t cry Ace, don??t cry. You can cry all you want when you are in your new bedroom.

I stood up and brushed my pants. Robbie jumped back on his feet too. This was not going well.

??My child has nothing to do with this. You are coming. End of discussion.??

??Tough. I am going nowhere.?? I was getting real frustrated. I hated the feeling of longing in my heart.

He could not just barge in and put his claim on me. He could not just waltz into my heart like he owned

it. I was not going to let him touch my heart once again.

I had a life.

He had a life without me in it. And I was trying everything in my power to keep it like that.

??You were not at the dorm all this week. Where are you staying???

??None of your business.??

He pressed me to the tree and kissed me senseless. He was not just kissing me, he was showing his

anger towards me, putting everything he was feeling in it and I knew I was hurting him, knew he wanted

me in his arms, knew he might be thinking of ways to make me understand.

I was unable to push him away. I tapped on his back when I felt dizzy, then he reluctantly stopped his

trying to swallow my tongue.

??When will it get into your head; you are my business. Don??t pull another stunt Ace. You won??t like

the outcome of making me angry.??

??Stop making threats.??

??Oh, that is no threat. Are you coming or not??? Robbie was trying so hard not to shout. A black

hummer rolled to the side of the park.

??I told you, I am not coming.??

Robbie was livid. He was upset and he had no idea how to change my mind.

??Go home, Robbie.??

He squeezed my wrist when I turned.

??Remember Ace, I did give you a choice.??

??No you did not.??

I walked away begging myself to control until I was alone.

What choice did he give me?

He gave my heart no choice but to fall in love with him.

He gave my body no choice but to yearn for him every night.

He gave my mind no choice but to think of him every second.

He gave me no choice.

No choice at all.