Through the Screen

Chapter 76

noah sinks further into his office chair, his eyes almost struggling to not fall shut, his glasses resting on

the bridge of his nose crookedly because he had no will to put on contact lenses today.

the screen of his computer is blaring, the harsh light almost unforgiving as an unedited advertisement

blinks exaggeratedly in front of him, silently mocking noah and asking him to complete his work before

he loses his job as well.

he's already lost a lot of things.

his fingers move aimlessly across the keyboard,the mouse of his computer scratching against it's pad,

and noah can feel himself being drawn closer to the edge every time he miss clicks and has to start all

over again.

his mind is focused on abel, his accusations making way into noah's brain and scattering all the

thoughts he seemed to have collected, returning noah's state of mind back to being messy and

uncoordinated and simply, incomprehensible.

noah almost feels guilty for not trusting abel. he had been accusing his own husband of cheating on

him for the past couple months and if the pain of one single day is getting to noah this much, he can't

even comprehend what he has put abel through.

yet again, the reason of their problems was stemming from noah. he had been so irrational, so

irresponsible and so inconsiderate towards his family, always thinking about himself, his feelings, his

issues, his anxiety. he has been so terribly selfish and no amount of apologies can fix his actions, or

their consequences.

right in this moment he wants nothing but to see abel, to hug him, to comfort him, to convince him how

madly in love noah was with him and just how desperately sorry he was. in this moment, he could do

anything for abel, to make him feel better, to make abel feel like he could never ever do such a thing.

the thought of being intimate with another person like he is with abel sickens him to the extent where

his fingers are shaking, and he wants a void to open up and swallow him whole just for thinking about

it. he can't even believe he was contemplating on sharing something that was solely reserved for the

only person he loved—he couldn't physically bring himself to kiss or touch or feel for any other person

except abel.

it was his ignorance, his reluctance, his thoughts that lead them into the mess that they are in right

now. it was him who couldn't trust abel, him who believed that abel could cheat on him with a person

who he claimed was only his friend. it was all noah's fault.

he shook his head aggressively, taking a deep breath and grabbing his phone from the cluttered table,

quickly dialling a number and pressing the device against the shell of his ear.

"dad? is everything alright?"

"take out the christmas decorations and an easy recipe for baking a cake," noah muttered hurriedly, Content from NôvelDr(a)ma.Org.

saving his work and shutting down the computer, before grabbing his suit jacket from behind his chair

and making his way out of the office.

"wait what? why?"

"i've got to apologise to someone,"