Hurt
Lilith’s POV;
A sense of calm filled me as I sat on the bed opposite the window to watch the sunset and marvel at how beautiful it looked.
I had been in that position since I woke up from my short nap about an hour ago. I was startled initially and internally cursed myself as I thought that I was late for my chores, and Cassandra was waiting in a corner, ready to pounce on me for daring to wake up late as I thought I was still in Green Forest.
All that felt like a long time ago when, in reality, it was just four days ago. I was surprised at Cassandra’s outburst, but I knew that woman too well, and I was aware that she was faking it. She wanted to escape being punished.
According to Cara, the wedding had been canceled, and I wondered if he had already thought about his earlier decision and decided that he couldn’t be with an Omega who is also a traitor.
I was almost always in the room, except for times when the Alpha King would tell me to spend some time with him on an evening stroll or join him for dinner. I was polite to him, but I really didn’t care. He never asked any other questions except if I was okay or if I had eaten.
I was no longer in the Green Forest but in the home of Alpha King Adams, king of the four packs in the state. If I were being honest, the thought terrified me because I feared that he was going to eventually leave me or betray me as Raider did. The thoughts that he had ulterior motives filled my head, and while I knew that I had to be prepared for the inevitable, my mind wasn’t prepared.
Lexi, my wolf, wasn’t even helping matters, as she seemed to have been brainwashed. She couldn’t function properly at the mere thoughts of the Alpha King, talk more of being in his presence, and it was even more terrifying to know that she might willingly give us up into his waiting arms when the opportunity finally presented itself.
“He’s our savior,” she said, and I hissed.
“You feel something for him. Don’t deny it,” she said again, and I rolled my eyes.
“Whatever I feel for him is disgusting. I hate them all.”
“But he isn’t the cause of your pain. See, he’s willing to punish Cassandra and Raider for causing you such pain.”
I was thoroughly annoyed, and I shut her up once and for all. “You are too gullible, and that is going to be our downfall! He is only nice to us because he wants to use us. He doesn’t care about us!”
She whimpered, and a deep sigh was expelled from my lips.
I kept staring at the now darkening sky, as I expected to see the stars anytime now.
“You should give him a chance and try to get to know him better.”
“Shut up, Lexi!”
I am furious with her now. She was too trusting in such an evil world, and that was why I never let her out. She saw everyone as being good!
Sometimes, I hated that we were so connected that I felt every one of her emotions and that, despite our disagreements, she still managed to push those emotions on me. But she was the only one I could trust in this cruel world.
A knock sounded on the door, disrupting my thoughts, and I turned from the window to face the door as I thought that it was Cara.
“Come in.”
Cara was proving to be a friend, but I had no idea if it was real or if it was because she was paid to make sure I was comfortable.
Slowly, the door opened, and the face of the Alpha King came into view. I blinked rapidly as my heart skipped a beat at the sight of him as my eyes landed on his ocean blue eyes.
He was staring at me intently, and I found myself unable to look away. He smiled, and I felt myself melting, and the same warm fuzzy feelings that Lexi had been feeling suddenly projected into my body. I peeked my eyes away from him quickly, deciding that I wasn’t meant to feel those strange emotions.
“How are you, Lilith?” His deep, velvety voice did nothing to prevent that strange sensation from taking over my body, and I glanced at the painting on the wall, the one I always looked at whenever he was in the room.
It was a painting of a large white wolf howling into the moon, and for some reason, I found myself drawn to the painting.
“Do you like the painting?” He added, and I heard the door close.
I nodded without a word, realizing that he had noticed me staring at the painting, and he muttered something under his breath as he sat down on the plush sofa in the room.
“I noticed that you’re always looking at it. It was a gift from someone.”
I said nothing, and for a while, the room was quiet as I struggled to get rid of the unwanted warmth spreading within me. I had breakfast alone as he wasn’t present at the dining table, which I was grateful for as I hated being in his presence because of my emotions.
Maybe he couldn’t bear to see me hurt when all he needed from me was to satisfy his pleasures.
“I could leave if you prefer to be alone,” he said after a while, and I popped my head up to glance at him to see that he had turned on his heel and was now facing the door, his back to me.
I must have been so lost in my thoughts that I didn’t notice that he had stood up and walked to the door.
“You can stay.”
He spun around, his eyes widening and his lips parting slightly, before he quickly masked his surprise with a boyish grin.
I was even surprised at myself.
He took a step forward, and with each step he took, my heart began to flutter wildly in my chest.
“Thank you, Lilith.”
I opened my mouth to speak, but swallowed hard as I nodded instead. I was surprised that he was thanking me.
“I had somewhere urgent to be this morning; that was why I missed breakfast.
I nodded, resisting the urge to tell him that I was fine. It was the best breakfast that I had eaten in a long time.
“Does anywhere hurt?”
I shook my head in response, and he nodded.
“I’m glad to know. Soon, you’ll be completely healed.”
He stepped closer to the bed, too close, and then he sat down beside me. I felt my body go stiff and released a breath in order to hide my nervousness and fear.
I glanced up to see that he was looking at me; his cheerful exterior was replaced with a frown, and our eyes met. I swallowed the painful lump in my throat as my heart slammed hard against my chest in fear.
I tore my gaze away, and when I looked up at him slowly, I saw the hurt in his face, and I felt the sudden need to explain to him.
“Why did you cancel the wedding?” I found myself asking instead of providing an explanation, and he seemed taken aback by my question.
“I-I-look, Lilith, I know you’re afraid of me. I don’t want you to be afraid. I will protect you.”
He was talking, but I zoned him off and just nodded.
“I do love you and want to spend the rest of my life with you. But I think we should get to know each other first. I want to know you-the real you, the real Lilith. Give me a chance to meet her.”
My gaze darted at him, and I could see the sincerity in his eyes at that moment. I wanted to bear myself out to him, but I just couldn’t.
Raider had looked at me like that. I had trusted him wholeheartedly, and my father had trusted his father, but then I saw what that had brought about. There was no way I was going to trust him.Belongs to (N)ôvel/Drama.Org.
I felt Lexi linking with his wolf, and I was sure he felt it too with the way he glanced at me, and I drew her back as I berated her.
“There is nothing more to know about me than you already have. I am an Omega, and I come from a family of…”
“Lilith!” He snapped, and I let out a sigh as I glanced at him.
“I don’t believe any of that. I–”
“It doesn’t matter what you believe. What’s done is done. Nothing can bring either of my parents back, and if you want to marry me even after knowing that fact, then fine, I’ll marry you.”
“Why?”
“Because you asked.”