Madrid

Raúl

The image of Alana licking my tattoos doesn’t leave my mind. The feel of her tongue under my skin made me a little beside myself, and I can’t look at her and not imagine the possibilities we might experience. Silence reigned all the way to the restaurant, I didn’t know what to say, with the discomfort written on his face, I thought it best to remain silent. At the restaurant, I continued without saying anything, until she decided to say something, and we started a conversation. I tried to talk about what happened, but she didn’t want to, so the focus of our conversation was another, her experience in Brazil.

During our conversation, something caught my attention, and it worried me. Your stepmother’s son. Knowing that someone had tried something so wicked on her, without her consent, as if it was normal, made me very angry, and I wanted to punch the son of a bitch. I get very angry when I hear stories like that, because I have a mother and a sister, I would never want someone to do that to them, and I think there is a very distinct line between conquest and wanting someone against their will. The desire has to be mutual, and I only continue when I see that the girl wants it too, if she doesn’t want it, there will be no pleasure, only violence. Our conversation varied on subjects, and we talked about many things, and everything was great, until Amália, an ex-girlfriend, decided to come to my table after Alana had gone to the bathroom. She approaches, and sits down without asking permission.

– Hello Raul? Long time no see…

– I’ve been busy!

– With that little girl?

– She’s not a little girl. And what do you want, Amalia?This content © Nôv/elDr(a)m/a.Org.

– Wow, why so much rudeness?

– I’m not being rude, I’m just accompanied by my girlfriend, and you sat down uninvited!

– Girlfriend? So you mean you never went out with me, or answered my calls, because of that kid?

– I think you better not talk about her like that, she’s not a little girl, let alone a child. She’s my girlfriend, and she has a name, she’s called Alana!

– And how are we?

– Our relationship ended a long time ago, and the times we went out after the breakup, there were no strings attached, and you know I hooked up with some women after you, and…

– But, we had a bid, even without commitment!

Amália says this, and Alana appears. She stares at me, and I don’t know what to say, I look like an idiot who’s hiding something from his girlfriend. But even so, I decided to put a stop to that situation.

– Amália, I don’t think you know my girlfriend. She looks at me and I see the anger in her eyes, she gets up, doesn’t say anything. However, Alana is still standing, and her gaze at me isn’t very pleasant.

– What was that, Raúl?

– She came to our table, and…

– I heard what she said, you had a thing, and…

– I didn’t have a thing with her, we met sporadically, that’s all. She’s the one who put it in her head.

– I want to go home!

– Already? I ask, and she doesn’t answer, just grabs her bag and heads for the door, I walk out towards her. She is close to the car, and still angry, it is clear that jealousy consumes her. I’m loving it! I know… It sounds silly, but I like it!

Inside the car, he’s still angry, and I don’t insist, I start. We arrive in front of his house, I stop the car, take off his belt, and put his hand on the car lock to get out.

– I can’t believe we’re going to end the night like this? – I say, and she turns to face me.

– Like this?

– You’re mad at me for something that doesn’t make sense…

– Does not make any sense? You told me it was unimportant, and that girl came to our table to charge you for something that…

– Something she created. I never promised anything serious, for me it was just sex, and nothing else!

-Was it just sex with her? – And with me? Will it also be just sex? she asks, and somehow it upsets me, I don’t want her to doubt how I feel.

– Of course not, I want to make love to you, share my life with you, and I want a serious relationship!

She stares at me with her big black eyes, and I touch her face, caress her lightly, open and close her mouth, as if I want to say something, but I continue my speech.

– I don’t want you to doubt what I feel, cariño. I’m not going to lie to you, of course I dream of the day I’ll have you naked in my bed. But I’m in love with you, and I’ve felt it for a while. Amália, like others who passed through my life, just warmed my bed, because if I didn’t have you, I…

– And how many more will show up wanting to complain about something you say, that they’ve created in their minds?

– Alana, I’m crazy about you! Understand this… My past is behind me, it’s you that I’m with, and it’s you that I want in my life, and in my bed from now on!

She looks at me in a way that always drives me crazy, Alana gives me a slight smile, and tucks a strand of her hair behind her ear. PUTA MADRE! I approach, kiss her neck lightly, go up a little more, until I reach her mouth and take her in a desperate way.

Alana

His kiss stopped that unbearable atmosphere that had settled between us. I didn’t like what Amália said, that really made me very angry, and I even said some nonsense to Raúl, but this defender is very smart, it’s no wonder he became prominent in his position on the field, the art of dribbling the attackers is something my boyfriend masters very well, as well as the sweet words to clear the obstacles that were between us that night. He caresses my face, and his woody scent makes me intoxicated, and to top it off he still says he’s crazy about me, and I’m the only one he wants in his life and in his bed, he can’t resist. I give myself to my boyfriend’s passionate kiss, extremely hot .

Once in my room, I lock the door behind me, and throw myself on the bed. My mind wanders through everything that happened today, starting in this room. Review: the day was extremely hot and fun! I touch my lips, his taste is still in my mouth, and a heat takes over me, much like I felt during the time I was with Raúl. I need a bath to calm down.

After my shower, I’m about to go to bed when I hear my cell phone ringing inside my bag, and I think I know who’s calling me.

– Hi boyfriend!

– Hi, baby! I just got home…

– Very well, I like it that way, very obedient!

– It remains to be seen if I will get any reward for this obedience, after all, obedient boys are always well rewarded! he says, and lets out a laugh on the other end of the line. What a bastard! Does he want to play? So let’s go!

– I think you’ve had enough rewards for today, quarterback!

– IT’S? I don’t remember, could you remind me?

– Here in my room… And in your room you got really excited when I licked your tattoos…

Seriously? Why did I say this? Just because I’m on the phone? I’m playing a dangerous game, and I know that when we meet, Raúl will want to continue this game. So I tried to change the subject, and he did the same, and we agreed to meet before he left for Barcelona, because on Saturday there will be “El Gran Clasico” he is very nervous, it is his first classic as a starter, it is not news that I do not support his team, but I will waste my precious vacation time, to watch this game, just because of my defender.

I wake up in a mood, and early, not so early, because, I’m still on vacation, actually since I started school, and soon after came college , I’ve never spent so much time without studying, although the school year at Spain only starts in the month of September and ends at the end of June, in which case high school students have eleven weeks of vacation, which is equivalent to almost three months. However, higher education starts in October, which means that I have many months ahead of me, but I don’t want to do nothing, before returning to Madrid, I thought of a series of things to do, several courses in the area of writing, a French conversation course (I need to improve my French, it’s rusty!). Although, since I got here my life has been about conquering Dani, disappointment, Raúl trying to seduce me, me being seduced by him and driven crazy.

I left the house, and I didn’t see anyone, better that way. Dani and my mom have been insufferable lately, and I don’t have much patience for them. As soon as I arrive in front of the building where Edu lives in the center of Madrid, I look around, and I feel happy to be there, and to think that I missed all this so much, and I miss Madrid immensely. Missing. A word that only exists in Portuguese, my mother tongue, but since I set foot in this city at the age of five, it has become my second language, of course it’s the language I use to talk to my mother, but even so, it’s strange for me, because I don’t feel so Brazilian, although I love Brazil, and all that fantastic culture that comes from my home country, but this is where I became who I am today, my life is here, everything I know I love the important people in my life. Very nice to be here again!

I get out of the elevator and turn left, follow a long hallway to the apartment where Edu lives with his mother. I ring the doorbell, and soon after I am answered by him, he greets me with a smile from ear to ear, and pulls me by the hand to enter. The apartment is very simple, but very cozy, the living room is spacious and has a sofa that has the shape of the letter L, he pulls me, and we join Babi, who is lying on it.

– Finally you’ve arrived. Said he was leaving the house, and that was about two hours ago…

– You’re not the least bit exaggerated, Babi! – I say, and make a face at her.

– Stop talking, tell me how it was last night, and then there was a hotter moment between you? – Babi asks in a very curious tone.

– Babi, stop talking cute, like a fairy-tale princess! What we want to know, Dona Lana, is whether or not you had sex with that hottie… I mean, with Raúl?

– Of course not! We started dating, and…

– Alana from heaven! If it were me, I would have given it since the day he said he had something important to tell!

– This is nothing new, Edward! – says Babi.

– Edu, it’s not that easy…

– Lana, I respect your opinion. I think it’s cute that you’re still a virgin at 19, also with the mother you have, who looks like she was educated at the same school for strict mothers that Babi’s mother attended. I understand, but now the situation is different, and you’re not dating a 15 year old boy, Raúl is a man, that’s what a man…

– Edu, can you stop this? I know very well that Raúl is a man, I noticed that yesterday when he…

– What happened yesterday? – Babi and Edu ask at the same time.

– We had some pretty intense moments.

– Explain that better!’ says Ed. I told them the whole story, and Edu wasted no time in making his malicious jokes. ‘So it’s big?’ I noticed that there was a volume there, but I didn’t imagine it to be like that. And there’s another thing, I heard that he does well!

– What? Like this?

– I was in a club, I think it was long before you arrived from Brazil, and there were some girls at the bar near the dance floor, and then Raúl approached the bar to get a drink. He didn’t see me, there were a lot of people, and I didn’t even have time to talk to him, but the girls who were close to me started to comment that one of their friends went out with him, and said that he drives anyone crazy. Those were the words they used. So Dona Lana prepare to be driven wild!

He said that, and I laughed, because I thought it was funny, and because I was nervous just imagining what kind of madness Raúl could take me, actually I know, I’m not blind. It remains to be seen, if I will be prepared for all this!

[…]

It’s late afternoon, when Raúl comes to pick me up at Edu’s house. I get in the car and he gives me a very tender kiss and says he missed me. We went to his house, and we agreed that we would take a bath in the pool. When I told this to my friends, Edu and Babi said that Raúl would try something, and that this story of spending a moment together before he travels , was a pretext to get me right, these were Edu’s words. As soon as we arrive at his house, I realize that there is no one, and I decide to ask.

– Where is everyone?

– My mother usually picks up my brothers from school at that time, and today is Friday, it’s movie day, that is, they will be late! he says, and I feel a hint of malice in his words. Okay, I know he wants to get more comfortable with me, and that there’s going to be some makeout, but is he thinking we’re going to have sex?

– Oh yes! And where can I change?

– In my room, there’s a closet and the bathroom, you name it!

– But and you?

– Let’s do this, I change in the closet, and you in the bathroom, all right?

I shake my head in a positive sign. I follow him to his room. I go into the bathroom, lock the door, take off my clothes and put on my bikini. Before I finish changing, I hear his voice saying he’s waiting for me at the pool. I arrive at the pool, and I find Raúl shirtless, and with a black swim trunks that marked his well… Anyway, you know what I’m talking about! He’s lying on a chaise longue, and when he sees me, his gaze travels all over my body, and it makes me very uncomfortable. I sit on the lounger next to him, not knowing what to do, or how to act.

Raúl looks at me, and invites me to take a bath in the pool, he throws himself in the water, I get up, and I jump too. I stand on the edge, and Raúl approaches, his gaze is too intense, he puts his hand on my waist, and pulls me to him, bringing our bodies together. His mouth takes mine with urgency as one of his hands roams my body, setting me on fire, he brings our bodies close to the edge and presses me, squeezing my ass, and it’s taking on a very large proportion. I feel something that makes me ecstatic, and I release a moan trapped in my throat. He kisses my neck, stares at me, and says something desperate that takes my breath away.

– I wish you so much. I want to make love to you, cariño!