Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 0486

Calvin.

When I woke up this morning, I never expected Emma to come to my office to apologize. Actually, after slamming the door in her face the last time I saw her, I didn't expect to ever see her again.

I thought that day would be the end. That would be the last time I ever saw her again. I know Emma, and I know she isn't good with rejections. I expected her to slither away and never show her face to me or my son again.

Instead, she surprised me. It's been what? Just a couple of weeks, and she's back. This time with an apology instead of pleading for a chance to see Gunner. I've never seen Emma apologize. She just takes what she wants, being unapologetic about it.

*Boss, should I add Anna as a potential client?" My secretary, Becca asks, walking into my office. "She seemed to be in a hurry and left before I could ask her contact details."

I was too stunned to function. This is the first time Emma has managed to catch me off guard. I hate it just as I am impressed by it.

"Don't bother," I reply, shaking myself from my shock. "She isn't coming back."

I don't why I don't tell her to make sure never to let Emma into my office again. That would be the best course of action, but I decide against it.

"You can have your lunch break, Becca," I tell her while checking my watch. "I'll be leaving in a few."All rights © NôvelDrama.Org.

"Okay, Cal,"

She then walks out of my office, leaving me alone with my thoughts. I had a lunch date in the next thirty minutes, but my excitement suddenly dropped in the wake of Emma showing up. Content belong to NôvelDráma. Org.

I won't lie. I've struggled with my feelings for Emma. There are times when I think I hate her. Then there are times when I'm just numb and don't feel anything. There are also times when I feel everything. The pain and the heartache. They are so overwhelming that I feel like I'm drowning in them.

If I am being honest with myself, I'll admit that my love for her isn't completely dead. I wish it were, but it's not, so I just pretend like I'm over her. I pretend that I no longer love her.

I cut myself off from Emma because of Gunner. I did what I did for him. What kind of man would I be teaching him to be when he saw me being led by a fucking leash? What kind of man would I be teaching him to be when he finally becomes old enough to understand things?

That it's okay to allow a woman to use you? That it's okay to allow a woman to toy with your heart and emotions? That's it's okay to keep chasing a woman like a love sick puppy even though she loves someone else?

I didn't want Gunner growing up to think I was weak because of all the shit I allowed Emma to get away with. I didn't want Gunner growing up surrounded by a toxic kind of love. It would have imprinted itself on him and that's the kind of love he would seek because that's what he was used to.

Standing up, I collect my wallet and car keys before leaving my office.

"Will you be coming back?" Becca asks when I pass by her desk.

"Not likely," I answer. "But I'll let you know if I change my mind."

I leave after she tells me goodbye.

My head is still in turmoil even after getting out of my office building and into my car. The drive to the restaurant is a blur. I couldn't get Emma's words out of my head.

I park my car, get out and walk into the homey restaurant. Thankfully, my lunch date had yet to arrive. It would give me time to get my emotions in check and get myself under control. Emma has already taken so much from me. I couldn't allow her to take anymore.