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I could NOT speak after aunt said all that. I don’t know what to say.
Can it be? Could what aunt said be true? That Clyde has feelings for me but he doesn’t know what to do. If it’s true, why does he have to hurt me?Belonging © NôvelDram/a.Org.
“I know you’re confused hija, but why don’t you try? Why don’t you try to give Clyde a chance to express and show his true feelings to you? You know, my son suddenly changed.” He shrugged and stood up.
“Anyways, I will cook something for our lunch. Wanna help me?” Aunt asked with a smile. I immediately nodded and returned his smile. I stood up and my aunt and I went down to the kitchen together. we prepared ingredients for aunt’s cooking until we actually started cooking our lunch. I didn’t see Clyde while we were cooking so I think he was in his room.
It was exactly twelve o’clock when aunt and I finished cooking. I have prepared the plates and spoons on the table. When I finished I said goodbye to my aunt.
“I’ll just get dressed first.” It nodded at what I said.
“Just call Clyde hija too, so the three of us can eat together.” I was stunned by what my aunt said. I wanted to say no but I stopped myself. I’ll just call him.
I immediately went upstairs and dressed in a duster. I left the room and went to Clyde’s. I stood in front of the door and raised my hand. Shall I knock? in the end I knocked three times on the door of his room. I waited for a few seconds but it didn’t open. I took a deep breath and knocked three times on the door. I waited again for a few seconds and finally he opened the door.
“What?” its a serious question. There was no emotion on his face looking at me. I was immediately nervous and swallowed saliva.
“A-Ah … I-I’m going to eat.” I want to scold myself for stuttering.
“Okay.” Answer it and again, we both stared at each other. when I couldn’t take it anymore I took a bite and turned away. I was about to leave when he suddenly grabbed my hand. I looked at him and this time, I saw the emotion in his eyes. It looks tired and pleading.
“How’s the check up?” I was stunned by his question and stared into his face. What?
“I want to know the result of the check up. How is it? How is … our baby?” My chest throbbed at the last thing he said.
Our baby?
My heart was beating faster and faster. It’s like … satisfied with what I heard.
“Answer me, Nathania.” I was brought back from my trance when he spoke again in a soft and gentle voice.
“A-Ah… o-it’s okay. Baby is h-healthy.” My answer. It nodded and for the first time.
It smiled.
My eyes widened slightly and was surprised at what I saw.
is what i saw true
Clyde smiled? For the first time it smiled at me ?!
“Let’s go. I’m hungry.” He said and walked ahead.
IT WAS AFTERNOON when the helicopter returned and left with Aunt Eleanor. It left immediately for the reason that it had more to do. He said he will come back and next time he will be with his wife. I would like him to stay here so that I can talk to someone, but I can’t. There is still something important to do and I don’t want to get in the way.
Clyde and I came back to my mind. my heart pounded as I thought about it. He smiled at me. What does that mean? I watched the ocean and the gradual sunset. Why is the sunset so beautiful to watch?
I stared at the stunning scenery in front of me. But suddenly someone sneezed behind me. I turned around and that’s how surprised I was when I saw Clyde standing in front of me with a glass of milk.
“I brought you some milk. Mom said that you need to drink your milk because it’s good for you and the baby.” it barely averted its gaze and handed me the glass. And again, my heart beat faster. I want to smile because it seems embarrassing as he speaks.
I reached for the milk and smiled. “S-Thank you …” Maybe it deserves my smile now, right?
Why is Clyde acting like this now? I’m changing! It’s like getting better… a little.
I turned back and looked at the sunset again. I was staring at that, but my mind was on Clyde!
“May I join you?” I turned around when he sat next to me. I was speechless and just stared at him sitting next to me. When he looked at me, I immediately averted my eyes from him.
“The sunset is very beautiful …” Turan said.
I wonder what he does and says. What’s wrong with you Clyde? Why are you like this?
I can’t speak. I wanted to look at him but my eyes were fixed on the sunset. Gradually getting darker. It’s getting late. I don’t know how many minutes we sat next to each other but didn’t say a word until darkness completely covered the sky. It’s late.
I was distracted by its hold on my hand. I immediately turned to him. Even at night, I can see half of its face because of the moonlight.
“I … I-I’m sorry …” My eyes widened at what he said. His voice was weak but that was enough for me to hear!
“A-What?” I will ask. I can not believe. I can’t believe a Clyde Marcus Salvdore apologized!
“I… I just r-realized…” He avoided looking at me and turned to the moon now.
“I was wrong. I was wrong. Everything I did was wrong.” It sighed.
“The first time I saw you, I was mesmerized by your beauty. Your nose, your eyes, your lips … And then you became my maid. My parents gave you a scholarship because they know that you want to reach your dreams. I thought it was just simple attraction that I felt so I passed a few months. I tried to distance myself from you. I ignore you because I don’t like how I feel about you. But when I heard you talking to an assistant, I was stunned to hear what you said. the person you are talking to teases you and forces you to confess. He asks you if you like me. And then suddenly, you said yes. You told him yes, you want something from me. But that’s it until now because I don’t pay attention to you. At that time, I wanted to celebrate. I smiled at the knowledge that you like me. “He stopped and looked at me again.
“Since that day, I’ve been following you. I want to know what you’re doing, where you are and who’s with you. During those times … I want to own you. I want to tell everyone that you ‘ re minebut… when your class was over, you went to a condominium building. There is a man with him. I know you entered there. While my staff was telling me that, I wanted to lose my mind. I got mad. You, with a man. It’s Spencer, right? You both entered a condo. what do you think i will think I thought he’s your boyfriend. Just the two of you in the condo, do you think I won’t think of lewd scenarios? So I thought you’re not a virgin anymore. That’s when I got very angry. I’m angry because you are always together. If you act, it’s like a real groom. I’m angry with you. Do I think you like me? But why are you with someone else? “I was nervous about what he said.
Why is he saying all this now?
“All I could think was, you like me. That you have feelings for me.. I thought, like any other woman who likes a man, they will find a way for the man to notice them and for the two of them to be close. I thought you would find a way for us to talk and get closer. But I just thought that was all. I was wrong. Because you have someone else.” He sighed.
“So I planned something. I’m so desperate to own you so I forced you to have sex with me. I really thought that you’re not a virgin anymore. I was so rough on you that time. I was evil. But then … I was wrong again. You’re virgin. I just took the most precious thing to you. but even if you’re mad at me, I am so thankful. Because I was wrong, you’re still virgin. My mood was celebrating at that time. I was your first. I was the one who took your virginity. After that, I heard you talking to manang Amy. You said you want to leave. You begged. you want to run and escape. You want to stay away from me. I got mad at you again. I pulled you and then I became violent with you again. You shouted at me, so I know you are very angry with me. And when you mentioned that guy’s name, I got even more angry. how dare you say the name of that man while I was with you?! So I threatened you. But you chose to leave. You ran away. But you think you can escape me? I did everything. Even if the result just made you even more angry with me. I offered you to be my slave. A sex slave. I know that was the dumbest thing that I did. I was so desperate! I want you to be mine only! I own you! You’re mine! And because of that, now you hate me.” He tightened his grip on my hand.
“You just made me angrier. I can’t make you submit! why can’t just give up and be mine? Why can’t you just … be mine? We had sex for several times until I planned on something again. I … planned on making you pregnant. I want to get you pregnant. Do you remember suddenly losing your pills? Because I took it. I threw everything away and made sure you got pregnant. And look at you now… you’re pregnant.”
“I know I’ve been a big fool to you. That’s why last night you begged me to let you go. I didn’t let you. If you thought you were the only one who was hurt, I was too! imagine, the girl that you want to own is begging you to set her free? To let her go? I can’t, Nathania. I can’t let you go. Because if I will, I think I will die. “It touched both sides of my head.
“I’m sorry Nathania. I’m sorry for all the things that I’ve done to you ! I regret everything! I want to change myself now. I don’t want to be an evil anymore, now that we’re having a child. I want to earn your forgiveness. I’m tired of being like this. I-I don’t w-want to see you mad at me anymore… I w-want to change. i w-want to c-change for you and for our baby. B-Because Nathania …. I d-don’t want to l-lose you again. B-But … “He withdrew the hands on my head.
“But i-if you don’t want me in your life anymore … if you’re t-tired of me. I … I w-will let you g-go. I … will set you f -freeI don’t want to f-force you anymore, Nathania. Because I r-realized… this feelings that I have for you is not just an attraction. I-It’s because…. I love you, Nathania.” And for the first time, her tears fell.
To be continued…