Big Bad Alphas

Chapter 40

Our conversation is quiet, no more yelling and arguing. We have worn ourselves out, and my body

cannot put up a fight against him anymore. My inner wolf was crushed from my actions just a few days

ago.

The words that left both of us meant nothing that night, and we both understand that. Eric is upset with

himself for bursting in on me, I can see it on his face. Many times I tell him that I forgive him, but he

doesn't seem to forgive himself.

Our conversation is quiet, meaningful, and filled with regrets, and I am dying to move on. Selfishly, I

have the power to forgive myself after Eric forgives me, but he cannot seem to do the same. I hate that

he is so angry with himself. "I'm okay, Eric," I tell him as I caress his cheek softly. "Please—I'm not mad

at you."

"What I said to you... I can never take it back," he murmurs and removes my hand from him.

"What you said doesn't matter to me anymore. I forgive you. I know you didn't mean it." The bedsheets

are knotted up beneath us, and we sit in the middle of it. The time is the last thing on my mind as I just

want to get through to him.

"I can never forgive myself for how I treated you," he gazes directly into my eyes, giving me nowhere to

hide. "I said you were my life, and that hasn't changed. How can I protect you if I'm the one hurting

you?"

"But you're not hurting me."

He shakes his head. "I did. I saw it on your face."

Tears threaten to spill from my eyes. "Eric, please—"

"Isabella, you're only hurting because of me. You're better off away from me."

"What about Alpha Kenn," I panic, needing him to agree with me. "Alpha Kenn will hurt me."

He stands up from the bed and nears the bedroom doors. "After everything is dealt with, I think it is

best for you to stay with your mother."

"Y-You can't do that." He says nothing and leaves the room, but I stop him before he gets too far. "What

—you won't even sleep with me?"

Eric turns away in silence for one of the guest rooms.

It is a sleepless night without him, something I didn't expect after leaving Evangeline's. I thought after

dealing with myself everything would be all right, back to normal, but it has only gotten worse. I called

him toxic; I said he ruined me, I know why he feels this way, and I hate myself for it.

All he wants is to protect me, to keep me happy, and now he believes the only way to accomplish that

is a life without him in it. But I can't live without him. He said he couldn't live without me.

In the morning I find the house empty. Caroline is off with Lucas at her home, as she moved back.

Marina has agreed to busy Kendra after being informed on my mood and what caused it. So the house

is empty, letting me cry in many locations other than the upstairs bathroom with the door locked. When

I was younger, I preferred to cry alone, not letting anyone see me, and I still prefer it that way.

After the clock strikes four, I seem to run out of tears, leaving me staring at the ground. I sit on the

couch with my lips shut, with no plan on opening them. My thoughts aren't jumbled anymore—I can

think clearly—I'm just suffering from an aching heart. My mate wants me to leave, not out of anger, but

love. And convincing him otherwise is harder than I expected, as he refuses to blame me for any of it.

I need to prove to him that I need him, which shouldn't be difficult because I honestly do need him.

Standing up from the couch, I rub my eyes and wander to the stairs, planning an attempt to sleep. If I

am lucky, my head will give me at least an hour or two of shut-eye. Before I can make it, the sound of a

door opening catches my attention. It sounds like the back door. If it is Marina and Kendra, I don't want

them to see me like this—but what if it is Eric.

Without a second thought I hurry to the kitchen, hoping to see my mate standing there, but what I see

causes my heart to plummet.

My lips part as my hands begin to sweat.

"What are you doing here?" Property belongs to Nôvel(D)r/ama.Org.

It is all I can think to say. Panic and anxiety are overruling me. My heart races in my chest, but there is

an unusual numbness that keeps me from really feeling it.

My lips run dry. "Why are you here?"

Alpha Kenn smiles. "Can I not visit my favorite Luna?"

The smears of blood on his chest give me a foggy dizziness that threatens to pull me to the floor. "W-

Why are you here?"

A sad look is cast on his face, something fake and playful. "Don't tell me you're scared?"

I can ask the question as many times as I like, but I know the answer already. "You're going to die—

people will come and kill you for this."

"I'm afraid they're a little occupied at the moment, dear."

He stands at the opposite side of the room, giving me a chance. I dash into the hall and aim for the

closet, remembering what Eric once told me. If I shift, he will take me easily, as he is an Alpha and I am

not stupid. The door is swung open, and I scramble in the baskets until I shove a scarf aside and feel

the cool metal against my hand. Just as Alpha Kenn grasps me and tugs me back, I hold the gun up to

him. He lets go.

"Don't touch me," I order.

He seems amused. "Put down the gun, Isabella. We all know you are no killer like your mate, or like

me. The blood proves that. Now hand it to me."

I clench my teeth and move the gun, so it is pointing at his shoulder instead of his head. The shot is

fired, and the kickback surprises me.

The bullet buries in Alpha Kenn's shoulder, giving him a scowl and tensing his muscles. The pain is

seen in his eyes, as he fights to hide it. "Give me the gun!"

He stalks towards me while reaching in his wound, pulling out the bullet like some barbarian. He

presses the bullet to my skin, directly on my chest, distracting me and snatching the gun away. "Silver

burns doesn't it," he seethes.

When he finally stops, I see the severe burn and begin to sob. It hurts like nothing I have ever felt

before. My skin is seared, dying for a drink of something icy.

Alpha Kenn grabs my arm and drags me out the front door, pulling me to what I am expecting is my

death.